Posted by: lylescott89 | November 29, 2018

I’m Just too Damned Tired


Hey kids,

Many of you keep asking when I will begin writing again.  The simple answer is I just do not know. I actually have a lot to say and an awful lot on my mind, but the desire to put it into words on a screen is just not there for me right now.

To put it mildly, I get a bit depressed at this time of the year. That does not excuse the fact that I have not written a damn thing since September, however I can explain that as well. I’m just so sick and tired of the hatred, the bigotry, the lies, the lack of compassion and all of the blatant racism that exists in this country right now. I know I have written ad nauseum about it all, but I just can’t any longer. I’m tired and I simply cannot understand what is happening. If I were to write everything I was thinking about this country and the disgusting monsters that allegedly lead us, I’d never get any sleep.

But to get back to this season I have gotten to the point where it means very little to me and I know that will make many of you sad. It actually makes me sad, but it has been building for years. I used to love it so much, but the commercialism and the “gimme, gimme, gimme” is just too much for me. It makes me so sad to see these migrants struggling to reach the border only to be attacked by tear gas when all they want is a better life. They don’t want to kill us; are seeking asylum. And while that happens we eat our turkey dinner. We shop at 3 AM for gifts that people don’t want and don’t need. We buy things for ourselves because they are on sale for an amazingly low price. Honestly, the whole concept is ridiculous when you actually think about it.

Compassion (1)

A group of people who want nothing more than a place for their children to live without fear of being killed every day (and frankly I am not sure America is that place) walk for miles and miles for hours every day in the heat, in the rain and in the mud for a better life and we greet them with tear gas. Yes, we’ve done it before, but not to 4500+ people seeking asylum, never to this extent and not nearly as brutally. There was no excuse for it then and there is no excuse for it now. These were women and children, not scary villains attacking like storming a castle in the Middle Ages. We decrie other nations for using chemical weapons, but when we do it, it is okay.

I am sick of people claiming to be Christians yet turning their backs on those less fortunate. I am sick and tired of people bitching about saying “Merry Christmas” when at the same time they tell us that no one else should have the “fortune” of being in this country but them. Where is Jesus in their lives? Is he nothing more than a symbol to them? I find it very telling that my friends who identify as Nontheistic, Agnostic or Atheist seem to have a much better grasp of how to treat people different than themselves than so many Christians in this country. I am no biblical scholar by any stretch of the imagination, but I do know this passage very, very well:

Matthew 25: 31-46

31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.

34 “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’

37 “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink?38 When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’

40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

41 “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42 For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’

44 “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’

45 “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’

46 “Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.”

Compassion (2)

Seriously, it cannot be more clear than that. If you are claiming to be a Christian and you are supporting this vile administration and its hatred of anyone who is not white, then you are doing it wrong.

So you can see why I am depressed. Holidays that have no meaning other than greed, I live in a country that has become a shithole and all that hate. I decided a while ago (on my hiatus) that I was not going to waste my time with anyone who was not nice. I was not going to waste my time with any person that voted for or continues to support such hatred and violence. It is okay to cut ties with friends and family members if those ties are toxic to your well-being. Just because we’ve known each other for umpteen years does not mean we are still friends. And I am okay with this. I am surrounding myself with people that care and with people that put the needs of others before their own. In other words, I am surrounding myself with love and saying goodbye to the rest. That’s why I have unfriended people on FB that have posted racist things. That is why I will not attend functions when certain people are there. Truth be told as an introvert attending functions of any kind is pure misery, but as the kids say, whatevs.

Compassion (3)

If we are to be a nation of people who have compassion for others, who have empathy for those in need and actually care about someone other than ourselves then we must put aside our irrational fears and do something. We should be at the border with clothes, food, blankets and water for these people. Not tear gas, not guns and not violence. Call me liberal all you damn wan; I wear it as a badge of honor.

I will leave you with this; I don’t know when I will feel like writing on a regular basis so please be patient. I have invited Sir Griffin for a return as he always cheers me up with his foul language and his bluntness.  He is going to let us know what he thinks of the TV season thus far.  I am looking forward to his return.

And with that, I give you my wish list for the holidays. Call it my Hanukkah list or my Christmas list if you wish. Doesn’t matter.

  1. Be kind
  2. Be respectful of others
  3. Share
  4. Chocolate Peanut Butter Pie Oreos 





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